The fuckers. There, I feel better. God-damned human race. There, I feel better.

A large white moon smiles at me through the windshield of evening

Frankly, I was horrified by life, at what a man had to do simply in order to eat, sleep, and keep himself clothed. So I stayed in bed and drank. When you drank the world was still out there, but for the moment it didn’t have you by the throat.

there is a place in the heart that
will never be filled
a space
and even during the
best moments
and
the greatest
times
we will know it
we will know it
more than
ever
there is a place in the heart that
will never be filled
and
we will wait
and
wait
in that space.

“…maybe a damned good night’s sleep will bring me back to a gentle sanity.
But at the moment, I look about this room and, like myself, it’s all in disarray: things fallen out of place, cluttered, jumbled, lost, knocked over and I can’t put it straight, don’t
want to.

Perhaps living through these petty days will get us ready for the dangerous ones.”